Giver and Healer

Thanks to by brother, Larry Wade, for the beautiful background photo from the the Central Andes of Chile. The mountains are Torres del Paine.

Over the last few weeks, I’ve been healing with the help of my source. Sometimes the past comes and has to be dealt with. My source, family, and dear friends helped me through. Spiritual healing is like looking up at these beautiful mountains, and it can be challenging, too. As I continue to heal, I now feel freer and more connected to my source. To grow and learn I had to be still and listen. To be still I had to SLOW myself down.

I am glad to get my energy back, and I was thankful for the time that I had to follow the four letter word: REST, along with my source. I had no other choice. So often in life before now, I would pick myself up so quickly, the word REST was not something I had ever known. In that state while I was healing, I could even be more aware of how good a shower felt, or how good a dinner tasted, or how beautiful the clouds are. Life became very simple. I could only do ONE thing at a time.

This is what Joshua Becker said about rest:

The Underappreciation of Rest in Today’s Society

“The only journey is the one within.” – Rainer Maria Rilke

I found out that on my journey within that I was never alone. My source, family, and close friends were always there for support and comfort me. Learning this at a deeper level of understanding and feeling it in my heart was truly the greatest gift to me!


Slowing Down

Too often in my life, I have lived as if my life were a swiftly rushing river.  I came from a hyper family and fit right in.  One of the things I’m still learning is how to slow myself down!

rushing river

Rushing River

Much of my work life I juggled rearing my daughter alone, several part-time teaching  jobs, driving nearly 100 miles most days, and writing. When I look back at that time,  I don’t know how I did it.  I think this is unfortunately the life story of many people today. Today many people have added even more things and distractions in their lives: cell phones, gaming, texting,  twitter, fast food, Facebook, little sleep, hours of TV.

waters in stream

Racing waters in Stream

I dabble in Facebook (because of my blog) and have a “stupid phone”, so today I have not gotten so caught up in electronic devices. I work on my computer at home. I feel I am fortunate that my stream (of life) is slowing down.  Recently, I was with a student, who is a senior in high school. He told me that he had to make a deliberate effort to look people in the eye to talk to to them because he was so used to looking down at his cell phone.  I was very impressed that he was conscious enough to notice what he had been doing and was trying to change his behavior.

Here is a TED talk praising slowness by Carl Honore:

“For fast-acting relief try slowing down.”  – Lily Tomlin

river bend

River slowing down

One of the bad habits I have acquired due to having lived a fast pace so long, is I interrupt people more than I wish to admit. I am trying to bite my tongue more; I still embarrass myself some. I have people I care about in my life who remind me nicely when I’m interrupting them.  My latest long time habit that is getting me into trouble is how I walk. I even need to walk more slowly and deliberately. This year I have already paid the price because I have fallen down.


still water of a pond

For me I meditate more now, and prayer has been helpful as I work on slowing myself down. I also live where the speed limits are low. Now I have more time to smile at cute children and people who are friendly, more time for walks and hanging out. For moments, I even have some serenity.

“Plenty of people miss their share of happiness not because they never found it, but because they didn’t STOP to enjoy it.”  – William Feather